Living With Hope not Fear

We can also exult in our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance,

and perseverance proven character, and proven character, hope.

Hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out

within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Romans 5:3-5

This pregnancy has been a practice of faith and trust in God, from the very beginning. It continues to be so now. Lemme tell you why…

My blood pressure has started to do wonky things, like being higher than we’d like. It’s no longer a cuff issue, as at home we get the same numbers the Dr. office and hospital have been getting. So now, all MY plans are tossed out and I’m on my knees in prayer to keep Jeremiah in until 36-37wks. I pray for His peace every day, many times a day. I KNOW He has a perfect plan. I’ve been praying to know that plan, and submit my heart and mind to it. The last place I want to be is outside the plan. He has been faithful to us up til now, He will continue to do so.

So now, our thoughts are on being prepared every week for it to be THE week we meet Jeremiah. It’s a practice in faith, trust and peace. We have thought about the outcome, talked about how we’d handle the details, all the while pouring out our fears and hopes at His feet, and receiving grace and peace in return.

We have also been dealing with the emotional fallout of this birth being similar to Michaels. All the fears of the unknown, yet known are present. No way around them, but to again lay them at His feet, over and over again until they stay there.

Many thoughts come back to me, in this time. Who am I that I might have special treatment? Who are we to expect a pain free, fear free life while here? What have I done, that is special enough to grant me ease all the days of my life?


Not one thing.


I have hope. I’m reminded again and again that I have hope. I have a God who is much bigger, and much more than I can imagine. I trusted Him in those days after Michael. I can trust Him with Jeremiah now. Jeremiah is, after all, His child first. I’m just borrowing him for a time.

Nights are the hardest for me, it’s when my fears are unleashed and try to rob me of my precious little sleep. Last night, I poured out my fears to God, and suddenly felt so much peace and hope. I immediately feel asleep. While I’m not 100% rested this morning, I still feel the presence of God, the peace and hope He gave me.

With all my heart, I rejoice today, for the hope and peace I have in Christ. No matter the outcome, I will continue to rejoice in His mercy and love.

In His hands,






Rest, Trust and Know

Rest: To cease action, putting to rest, repose, relief, peace, refresh, be still.

The meaning can vary, according to your source, and your aim. But this is more of a spiritual rest. A spiritual rest that causes my mind to be at ease, and full of His peace. To not be anxious for anything.

Trust: to have confidence, to hope.

My soul longs to trust Christ and His promises. To trust without fault.

Know: recognize, understand, to see, discover.

I must know my God, fully and truthfully.


Right now, He’s been pressing these words (actions) on my heart. To REST in Him. To TRUST Him. To KNOW Him. In the knowing of Him, the trust and rest will come. How can I not trust the God of my faith, when He’s held me up during the darkest times of my life? His word is faithful, He will again hold me up and give me strength. Give me the measure of faith for each day.

Oh, but the hardest part is to trust, isn’t it? Even when you have a recent example of His faithfulness to encourage you. But I’ve come to realize that everyday is a choice, every movement of faith is a choice. Every step along the way, is a step of faith, a step of choice.

Step, choices. You decide and move, yet He is there the whole way. Even when it’s not according to His plans, or His path for you. He is there.

I must choose to know Him, trust Him and rest in Him. To know that His plan is perfect in every way.  To choose faith over fear or anxiety.


Father God, help me to grow in the knowledge of You. To hold your truth close to my heart, and nothing else. No room for fear or anything not of You.


In His hands,



Baby update!

It’s been awhile, almost a month actually! So here goes.


I have gestational diabetes, but am managing it well! Jeremiah is measuring right on with my dates, and is still the active little martial artist. He is head down most of the time, so I get to enjoy the pressure ‘down there’ and the kicks up high.  I’ve lost some weight, which was the plan, since the fear of big babies seems to make the medical world all twitchy and such. My blood pressure also remains in great shape, thank God.

Now for the part that I’ll try not to be too feisty about.

My experiences with the current practice haven’t been the rosiest, to say the least. Lots of miscommunications and wrong diagnosis’ have made me feel a bit combative with each visit.  Because of my previous history of pre-eclampsia and being over weight and having gestational diabetes, seems to make some jump to conclusions faster than they should be. I’m afraid I’ve failed at the whole, being calm part of being pregnant.  Unfortunately my first instincts are to see red and go in fighting, imagine that. 😉  But yesterday I practiced being calmer, and nicer (at least in my head). God IS in control , as He always has been. Sometimes I just forget that, and like the pitbull I am, keep pushing.

Just have to take it one day at a time, and do my best everyday, while praying that God allows us to go full term and remain healthy. God’s plan is good, no matter what it turns out to be.


In His hands,



Bed Rest

Bed rest.

The two words most people don’t want to hear, especially when it involves them. Like, ever. Yet, I’m on bed rest now, until baby J makes his appearance. Which will hopefully, God willing, NOT be until November sometime.


Why, you might ask, do I get to enjoy bed rest? Is it my health? Or the babies health?

Yes and no. I have no reason to be on bed rest, but am on it as a precaution. I’m trying to look at this with my humor, determination, and stubbornness. Its for my health, and Jeremiah’s health, that I do this, and do it well. No cutting corners, nothing like that. I’m also praying that I don’t become intolerable to those around me, and they have been told they have permission to whack me, or something like that, if I DO become a brat.

It’s a good thing that I have a few hobbies which are conducive to bed rest.  I’ve been meaning to read a few more books, and make a few more cards. 🙂 Write a few more blogs, more often. Get into my Bible more.


Today is day one of bed rest. It already tested my tongue. Husband had to pack for his Army trip to Utah, and then also pack me up to go stay with my Mom while he’s gone. That meant that some chores needed to be done, and the kitty cat loved on, and taken care of as well. It’s hard to have people do things, when you’re the one used to doing them. It really is. I’m the independent sort, no kidding right? So it just feels a bit more difficult to deal with at this point. But I keep reminding myself, to hangith thou in there baby…one day at a time, one minute at a time.

This will test me, and those around me, I’m sure. Not that I have a choice in the challenge, but dare I say…bring it on? God is with me, I have a good support group, and a great reason to stick to it.


Pray for all of us, that we might survive this lovely time of growth and adjustment!



Linky Wednesday!


The Real Life Of A Red Head: Home-made laundry soap – This is so simple! I imagine you could add essential oils to it, or crushed lavender, etc for a slight smell. I can’t wait to make this up for myself!

Money Matters:

Christian Personal Finance – How to fight against your own worst enemy! You know we all have it, deal with it. What’s your plan? What’s your success?

Saving Without Couponing – It CAN be done people! If you’re like me, I can’t coupon to save my money. I’ve tried. But I forget them, or they expire, or it’s not food I normally eat. I’m trying to stay away from processed foods, and wouldn’t you know it? Most of the coupons out there are for processed foods! So happy to have found this site!


DeNami Products: Aren’t these flowers just beautiful?

Royal News Watch:

Pantyhose are BACK! – At least Catherine, the Duchess, is making them popular again.


NM town gets rocked by scandal – The Police Chief, Mayor, Village Trustee, and nine others are charged with conspiring to smuggle hundreds of guns to drug cartels over the border in March.

Baby Related:

Your Fluids Are Low? – Many women are induced for having their fluid levels low. Is that really true? Read on!



Hope you enjoyed the links this week! If you come across anything interesting, please share in the comments below! I’d love to see what you’ve been learning, enjoying, etc this week.

My Top 5 Must-Haves for Baby J

If you were to ask 10 different people, their top 5 must have baby items, you’d get 10 different answers.  So here’s my list of the important stuff!

1) You MUST have a place for baby to sleep, unless you’re bed-sharing. We’re not, so we’re getting the  Arms Reach Mini Co-Sleeper Bassinet,

2) Next on the list is an Angel Care Monitor. With Michael, we had the simple sound monitors, but with this baby, we’re going with a sensor as well, even tho he’ll be IN our room with us.

3) We want baby to be safe on his first trip home, so we got this lovely, Graco Comfort Sport Convertible Car Seat.

4) With our next must-have, I had two stipulations. It had to be light, and it had to have REAL wheels. This one has it! And for added bonus, it’s SUPER easy to handle, one-handed! Baby Trend Expedition Jogger.

5) Last, but certainly not least, an infant carrier, that I can breastfeed in. Infantino Wrap N Tie Carrier.

We tried to make our list as minimalist as possible, but when you’re in baby mode, it’s hard to pass up cute this, or cute that. I think we managed pretty darn well, don’t you?! If I had to add anything else to my list it would be, Halo Sleep Sacks and California Baby toiletry items for baby.

What are your top 5 must haves for baby? What is most important to you?

Please share in the comments below!


Preparing for Birthing

Preparing for birthing, known as labor, doesn’t begin with the first surges, otherwise known as contractions. It doesn’t even begin when you get the positive home pregnancy test.  It starts sometime before, and isn’t fully realized until pregnancy happens. As I continue preparing for birthing, (labor), I realize something about myself. I am strong enough to do what needs be, when needs be. By searching the internet, I’ve found several craft projects to help me focus on the tasks at hand.

The first being, a ‘Labor Book‘, but I’ll call it, my Focus Book. Full of verses & quotes, pictures of inspiration & helpful imagery, I pray it helps me to remain calm, and focused. I pray the verses help remind me of where my true strength comes from, from God Himself.  I want to make mine small, so it’s more portable, and I can carry it with me in the last few weeks or month.

My next crafty idea, is to create a necklace, full of beads from friends whom I wish were near during the birthing, or who give me love and support when I’ve needed it. This necklace will be unusual, mis-matched, probably wild and bit fun. But I think it describes them, and myself, perfectly. I can’t wait to see what they get me! 🙂

As I continue to make plans and figure things out, I enjoy each kick, movement and feeling I get from Baby J. Pregnancy is a road that I choose to enjoy, even in the uncomfortable, painful and unknown ways. God is in control of it, not me. I need to remind myself of that one, daily!


What did you do to prepare for pregnancy? I’d love to know!